There's Gum Under My Shoe!

The nice thing about sticky obstacles is that once you discover them, they become your ally. I've spent the past week with strong intent and actions to get clear around what these "new" obstacles are so I can clear them. I can't clear what I can't see!

My experience is that when I get right down to it, I cannot see them because they are hidden by one thing: my fear. My fear might be wrapped in all kinds of different-looking packages, but when I get right down to it, it's still fear. Fear leads to things like bolstering, comparing, judging, doubting, hiding, blaming, and sabotaging of myself and others. Yet, it's all really just about me.

Fortunately, I have a fabulous group of friends who - like me - all travel along their journeys with strong intent for freedom from such obstacles. So I figured I'd ask them what they see. I'm aware that I (we all) have shadow parts of myself that I simply cannot see - sticky obstacles - the gum under my shoes. I've learned now how useful it is to call in extra eyes when I'm feeling something that I cannot see or clear on my own.

For me to ask my friends, though, I had to first open my heart to what might come back to me, to hold their reflections as information rather than fuel for what the Toltecs call my Parasite. The Toltecs say we all have one - that voice in our heads that feeds us lies about ourselves; that awakens either the Judge or the Victim part of ourselves and stirs them up; that takes us away from the truth of who we really are - expressions of the Divine - and puts us into a place of fear.

What I want, what my intent is for this Adventures Of A Year To Love, is to move more closely toward living a life of joyful, open and loving presence - like little children. The Toltecs say that state is our true nature once we get past our Parasite... and that's the state I'm going for: a return to presence, innocence, openness, freedom, joy and love.

Coming face-to-face with all the gum under my shoes is just the first sticky step!