In This Moment

Today I have a cool 200 days left of this year to live. That's just over 6 months. I recognize my mind wanting to pull me back to the past or forward to the future by asking: "What have I done?" "What can I still do?" And I realize that the only question really worth asking is: "What am I doing?" 

I ask myself this question daily, not to stress about it, but to bring my full awareness to it. The mind says, "I want to be full of my time here. I want to feel good about my journey. I want to feel happy about my relationships to everyone and everything. Did I do my best? Did I clean up any residue? Did I live from my authenticity and integrity? Did I offer service with a full heart? Did I bring smiles? Did I leave something of value behind?"

And I resolve to bring everything to the present moment and let go of the rest. Because "I want to" and  "Did I?" are not present; they are future and past creeping in. They are not the same as "being" in this moment. In this moment, how do I feel? In this moment, how am I engaging with life? In this moment, am I free? In this moment, am I expressing my divinity? These are the questions to attend to. The rest does not seem to be of importance when I scale everything down to the present moment...

This is the month that I make an altar to my life. How perfect. What is my life in this moment? How does it feel? How will I reflect that on my altar? My altar will be alive and dynamic, changing as I change during the next 6 months...just as I and life always are. What a sacred concept to breath into my being. How sacred is life; how sacred am I as a part of this life in this moment.

In the book Discover the Power Within You, Eric Butterworth says "The greatest mistake is in believing that we are 'only human.' Our humanity is but the degree to which we have given expression to our divinity. We are human in expression but divine in creation and limitless in potentiality."

And so it is. May this and every moment be held as sacred expression of divine, limitless potentiality.

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